The Threshold of Coolidity

It’s a beautiful world. It’s a beautiful life. How something so beautiful can also hold such ugliness is beyond us all. Sometimes all you can do is stand up and shout “It’s not fair! Why me?” and your words will either be lost in the noise of a million people in the world screaming the same, or echoed together to reach someone who maybe hears us all!

This morning I was driving to school, and just at the point I turn left every morning I saw the metrobus picking up people. I hate to drive behind the metrobus, so in a second I decided to turn right and go the other way. I don’t know why, but a thought flashed through my head: What if? What if this one second choice determines everything from now onwards in my life? It’s easy to blow it off but you’d be amazed how many people lead lives based on something that took a second to happen. One of my friends, Anubha lies today in a rehab center, in a coma, fighting the ugliness of life with all the beauty in her soul! I don’t know the real story, but I heard an SUV came spinning and tumbling out of nowhere forcing her car into a ditch. She was pulled out of her car after cutting it open and has been in a coma ever since. I don’t know what decisions she made that day that took her to that spot at that time, all I know is that nothing she might have decided, thought, or done deserves to be punished with a random car coming out of nowhere slamming her into the darkness she lies in.

Have you ever said “Bad things happen to the best people!”? Well, add one to that list. Anubha is probably the nicest girl I have ever met. I’m not saying nice coz that’s what you say when someone gets hurt. "Nice" is a word I rarely use just becoz it gets thrown around pretty lamely these days. For me nice is a feeling of warmth you get becoz of something else, it doesn’t excite me, doesn’t make me feel like jumping for joy, just makes me feel warm, just makes me feel nice. I believe that people are needlessly complicated but the first time I met Anubha the first thing that came to my mind was: She is so uncomplicated and simple! I’m not one of her closest friends, so even though I can put my feelings when I heard the news into touching words, I won’t coz how I felt is insignificant compared to what has fallen upon her, and collapsed onto the ones closest to her. I’ve heard her say some really witty stuff in the couple of times I’ve met her. The coolest one being the first time I met her at Sparsh when Spandan was playing, she dint like the music and was sitting outside. Someone said “When will this end?” Anubha said “It aint over till the fat lady sings and I haven’t sung yet ……..”, A mind that sweet and fast is not going to perish just becoz the lights have been turned out for a while!

I don’t really know if there is a God in heaven above. I guess it’s times like these when we feel that he definitely isn’t there. I guess it’s times like these that we need to know that he is there! Sometimes I think God is there, but he is as helpless as you and me in certain situations, and if you could hear him, he’d say “I wish that din’t happen to her, she dint deserve it!” But again, maybe he can help in ways we can’t, so ………..

Well, I don’t know how she is right now in detail, I know that the doctors are extremely impressed with her progress, she has moved around in her sleep, and muttered some words too. I think all of us who know her, or just care should hope/pray that she wakes up, takes a couple of steps, and knows who she is. That would be something to put a smile on faces that have done nothing but channel tears since the event. If you would like to know how she is, or help in anyway please join a yahoogroup dedicated to her http://groups.yahoo.com/group/anubhafriends/

Anubha,

While you were sleeping, someone cried for you
While you were sleeping, someone waited for you
While you were sleeping, someone smiled for you
While you were sleeping, someone prayed for you
While you were sleeping someone spoke to you
While you were sleeping, someone couldn’t sleep because they love you!