The Threshold of Coolidity

So, as Spring Break set in I promised to remain cool, composed and in control of missing Victoria, I wouldnt let my feelings out , nerves of steel and I did great for 22 hours and 13 minutes and then I found myself on the facebook writing a message to her . The message poured out how I think she's awesome, and how I hope she doesnt hate me. I am shocked at myself ...  My ego, the size of a small country, which I never ever compromise, was swept aside by this immature  tantrum of getting Victoria to say hi to me. Its been 2 and a half weeks since, but she still hasnt said hi ...  instead she's joined some group called "I've been stalked on this site blah blah and I'm still on it".. and I cant help think that she's done this becoz of me and it feels aweful.  so I needed a smart, sexy and bold solution to my dilemma. On one hand my second message to her boldy promised that I would walk upto her the next time I saw her, on the other it kinda asked for  a reply ....  And thats when my stupid head came up with the idea of reverse psychology. Maybe, just maybe, if she dint see me for a while she'd miss me, so I avoided the stamp all week, esp Friday (it helps that the weather  is freaking awesome and its fun going downtown) but come Friday evening i was miserable and I missed seeing her like crazy! So my reverse psychology reversed on me and bit me in the ass .... I miss her, she thinks I'm a stalker ... I like her, she hates me .... ... I'd bet things cant become worse, but the way this is going I wont ...
- Bandy

So, Spring break happened a couple of weeks ago. The day we were breaking off for spring break (friday) I ritualisitcally voted that we go to the stamp.  (Vinit and beer are putting up fights against it these days coz they wanna go downtown!- grrrr) Anyways, we equipped ourselves with Panda Poo and went into the seating area. And of course I noticed her within a second but walked past her looking for a spot to sit down. but vinit found a spot right infront of Victoria's table and couldnt resist stopping there and inisisted that I sheepishly come back .... So once seated and having our sitting noted, lunch started and our normal jokes took over the conversation ....... but I dint have a clear view of Victoria ... and I have no idea how she manages to smile  like that  ... my poor heart melted and  I really wanted to make eye-contact ... but Rajat's huge fucking head was in the way,  It was like a bobble doll's huge head, all head and no brains ... and we kept giving him hints to move left or right but he dint ...  No eye-contact, no smile for me, and beer says she looked pissed and then walked off  after some time .....  I ran after her giving a minutes break ... This was my one chance to speak to her. Why? Coz the stamp is the worst place to talk to a woman you dont know. its like walking upto some girl in a restaurant while she is eating ... Weird ... you dont walk upto people who are eating when you dont know them! All I needed was t0 catch her without her army and without food in the equation, coz I cant walk upto her while she is surrounded by 5 girlfriends, its like being naked with a spotlight on you (well, I kinda might be more comfortable in that situation than this one) ...  but by the time I went out looking for her she had disappeared !  Damn!!!! played pool, my game was off ..... this sucks .....and its spring break, so I wont see her for a week ...i hate myself !

Recap:  I saw her at the Stamp (place where umd students get crappy food)  in Feb for the first time and she took my breathe away. I couldnt finish my Kung Pao Chicken as I kept trying to catch a glimpse of her smiling. (digression: why does the mexican dude at Panda Express say egg roll and soup in a chinese accent?) So, I sent her  a short message on Valentine's just telling her how cute I thought she was. She never replied. I wanted to talk to her the next week, but then the Duke Game happened! (I had the best seats in the house behind the duke bench, screamed my ass off .. voice sounded sexy as hell afterwards ... was all excited about talking to her. come monday morning, my voice sounded like a toad croaking while being tortured!)  So, a week went by, and thereafter each time I saw her I failed to locate my balls and go and talk to her.
However, since then I love to go the Stamp for lunch! Though I have discovered that my heart is in my stomach coz I get this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach when I see her and cant eat at all. (btw I am going to refer to her as "Victoria" for certain reasons) God! she's breathtaking! And now comes the sad part .. She is 19 ... And I am twenty-freaking-five!  Anyways, so, I continue to drag my guys,  Vinit,  Beer, Raj and subject them to the misery the stamp calls food every week to see my sweetie .... (well, she doesnt know she's my sweetie! but whatever)